So here it is…my adventure in obedience. It’s been a long, drawn-out affair, this responding to God’s call in my life. I’ve run away, I’ve denied His existence, I’ve stiff-armed His every call to ‘take His yoke’ upon me..knowing I could do it much better myself. But I couldn’t. And I didn’t. And He patiently and consistently loved me enough to allow me to wallow in the muck of my own making until I was such a dirty mess, I had nothing left but to allow His cleansing. Was it easy? Absolutely, positively NOT! There were days where I could do nothing but scream in frustration, sob in the shower, lay on the floor in complete brokenness as He replaced my pride with something He could use. But He waited, like a Father watching His 2-yr old have a tantrum, complete with kicking her feet and pounding her fists, until I was spent and no longer resisting. Then He scooped me up and dried my tears and helped me realize that His Way is better after all. That was years ago and I’ve learned to trust much quicker and easier without all the drama. Not perfectly, mind you, but better.
So when He asked me to leave my career in healthcare to go into full-time ministry of teaching and helping homeless, I only hesitated long enough to assess the finances and talk it over with my husband. (If I had REALLY trusted, I wouldn’t have checked the finances, because 1Timothy 6:17 says ‘Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment.’ Enjoyment! Not just needs but pleasure…unfathomable!) So last month I did it…I jumped out of the boat of a guaranteed paycheck and benefits and a retirement plan. I left the hospital after 34 years in healthcare and I’m leading Women’s Bible Study currently and will add a Children’s Study in the Fall. I’m excited to see where God will take us. And I am so incredibly grateful that He gave me the example of Simon Peter…an exuberant, rash, strong-willed, and sometimes exasperating disciple who loved the LORD with all his heart, even though he must have grown pretty tired of the taste of his own feet from placing them in his mouth so often! Not that I can attest to that…not one little bit! (Is my sarcasm showing?) I am also incredibly awestruck, overwhelmed, and humbled that God, The Creator of the Universe, would take the time to bother with little old me, to give me the faith to believe and trust and love. How awesome is that??